Creyziness

A week ago I was craving for an Indian Mango, I was so desperate to have one that I'm willing to risk my health to go outside to satisfy my craving. But hindrances came pouring to the point that I realized it wasn't worth the effort of risking myself and everyone in my cousin's household. It is just a want. Then moving forward today, that Indian Mango cravings is not in my mind anymore, I was actually immersing myself in Dr. Charles Stanley's preaching at our Granny's Roof deck, when suddenly my Aunt came by and asked me if I want an Indian Mango, and of course I said yes. Then it hit me, God provides but not in our terms but in accordance to His will. Oftentimes I cry for the wrong stuff because I have the wrong mindset: I want this, and I want it now - is my kind of thing, not logical and all feelings and that is where everything and rain of tears (I'm a crybaby) goes down the drain. I overthink a lot which leads to questioning my worth and my face, body and a...